the fine art of procrastination

i'm quite skilled in this area, though lately my procrastinatin' ways are bordering on avoidance. i have convinced myself that when jack starts school next week (HALLELUJAH!) that i will get back on track. on the agenda:

• paint bathroom and buy a new bloody sink (well, not really bloody...)
• buy a new damned washing machine -- current one has decided it will only wash with cold water
• finish wholesale order -- almost done, but not quite.... i have learned that agreeing to stitch a complicated design on black shirts is A MISTAKE.... it's way too hard to draw/transfer the design
• get started on crafty bastards stock
• organize damned office/craft room so i can do work without feeling CRAZY
• make a doctor's appointment to figure out what the hell is wrong with me -- so i've been waking up in the middle of the night with ferocious hunger pains. like, gut-wrenching pains. i googled and, considering symptoms like low energy and depression and others that ring a bell, concluded that i may have hypothyroidism. while it's nice to put a name on it, i'm totally freaking out about the possibility that it could really be low thryoid. since i got back from austin i have steadily gained about 5 pounds, which is just enough to make my clothes uncomfortably snug and my gut irritatingly bulge-y. and even though i have been waking up 1-3 times a night with these insane hunger pains, i refuse to eat anything because i don't want to gain any more weight! it seems that a lot of folks with low thyroid tend to put on weight and are unsuccessful with losing it because, in addition to being hungry ALL THE FUCKING TIME, their metabolism slows down. WHAT KIND OF FUCKED UP CONDITION IS THIS?? sigh. so yeah, it might not even be low thryoid, which apparently goes undiagnosed A LOT anyway, but i'm at a loss to figure out what else it could be.